The second piece in my new series, ‘AYAM’.
This second iteration saw me delving deeper into the untapped potential of graphite. Applying powdered graphite with a brush, push it around, and pulling it back out with kneaded eraser— all provide a more paint-like experience to what are considered drawing materials. Pressing the kneaded eraser into rich textures (such as the spring on my architect lamp), then applying those textures to the graphite, allowed for a whole new realm of layering.
This piece was also created on the heels of an intense emotional experience, and served as a place for me to outpour that energy. Here’s an excerpt from the artist statement on Patreon:
Before the night I streamed this drawing, I had a conversation with a regular in my groups, including my Patreon. He's a deeply thoughtful and nuanced person, but despite these particulars my discussion with him on the LDS church, and its role relating to, as he put it, "LGB issues", ended up frustrating me. I was screaming into my pillow over how that conversation went down. When this reminded me of how it felt the first time I started reading the Book of Mormon, I cried. That book felt like my spouse cheating on me. It felt like the rug being pulled out from under me. The veil was lifted from my eyes revealing that the beautiful person across the aisle from me was a mannequin of rotting flesh. I could smell that disgusting metaphor in detail, as my pillowcase became saturated with my tears.